Barb, Enjoy your party this afternoon/evening. I'm sure all of the guests will enjoy themselves and the new people will learn what a beautiful person you are, as well as getting to know Josh and your children.
Merry Christmas to you and your family.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
