what mwd says rite out at beginning of mlc chapter - that they panic and think everything in the world that is wrong with their life (them) - guess this is the part where we have to let them TAKE THE JOURNEY ON THEIR OWN. AND TAKE CARE OF OURSELVES BEST WE CAN.
I havent even read any more of what you posted and I am already thinking l love you for say all of this, and reminding me as I didn't get that tattoo yet. I am soo angry and in pain, I am blinded right now!
they THINK they are trapped rats - rats of their own creation. traps of their own creation- well, i don't see either of them gnawing their legs off to get out of this "trap> . they lie and lie and lie and keep us around- wtf
My s21 ( who hates H) said that this morning, everything H is going through is self inflicted therefor he will have to make a 180 before S will be his S again.
i'm keepin busy- do something christmasy with kids- cookies- goofy ornaments- shove him to the bakc of your mind and existence.
I'm getting my recipes together for my grandma's poppy seed cake, and my biscotti reciipe, it's helping! I may order some sushi, more like maki, and enjoy some lights around the hood later when D gets back.
I am trying so hard to put him away, in plastic wrap with no holes, wait I digress, out of my mind, yea! He followed me into the kitchen asking me what do I know about the end of the world, God, and everything the history channel is filling him with. I made nachos as he ranted to himself!
He's sick, scared, depressed, but mostly sick! He said he hears himself crazy, but likes it, ok!
Your post was perfect timing, just after the nachos, the rant and in time for some mocha coffee! Thanks for your time and kind words I really need to be realed in from my own anxiety.
I don't think your H is sick, lost and running with flipped thoughts in his head, yes. But, I seem to be dealing with another level of true mental illness here, so I do have to tread lightly and smart. The best and maybe only thing for H is to get in some real health troubles so's to take advantage of a hospital stay and send in a phyc.
I love Christmas music but right now I think he may combust. you enjoy your night and you baking, hope you get your walk in, too cold here!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
