So some of you may know my story and some of you may not. I was in a bad marriage that ended in an affair. I was left beaten down and broken in all honesty. If you want to read about it here's the link
I've managed to do it again. I've gotten into another relationship with a woman who has issues. Things are a little different this time though. I actually have friends and other things I do to distract myself. I actually have a small band set up. Nothing big but we just get together from time to time and play around some and I have a small group of friends I trust that I hang out with. I also am in a gym and taking kickboxing classes once a week. So some aspects are a little bit different than the last time thankfully.
Anyways she is well on her way to having an affair and I am well on my way to madness. She is working on having an affair. She has not had one as of yet. So right now I am starting the 180. Not to try to fix our relationship but to try to fix me. Going through this again hurts real bad but I'm trying my best not to be consumed by it. What does make it worse this time is I actually know the guy! He is more than willing but she just hasn't as of yet. I thought he was a pretty good dude but apparently I have been wrong. Not to mention she has told multiple lies about me. Saying that I do this and I do that. Making me into the bad guy and victimizing herself to people.
She is a lot like my ex wife. She has a tendency to lie. Usually not about anything big but I have caught her in a few. She will even lie to her kids about taking something as simple as make up. I know her hormones are all messed up right now. She had a hysterectomy several years ago and she has had testosterone problems ever since. She has not been on anything for that in quit a long time. There is a seminar she is planning to attend that specially makes the shots per person but that's not until February. Right off hand I figure we can make it to through the holidays maybe but that will be pushing it.
She has told me that she doesn't want to do anymore long term relationships for awhile just short term..ie bed buddy. I am so mad and worried about this that I am highly considering calling the HR department at her job and telling them what she's been up to on facebook and gmail on their computers during her work hours.
I can't figure out how it is that I seem to keep getting into these bad relationships. I've decided that after everything is said and done here I'm taking a long break from dating to reassess myself and figure out what it is I'm doing wrong. There has to be something I'm doing that keeps drawing me to these people that are going to treat me the worst.
