Changing Directions

[RegretfulLA]

All of you are invited! Come to LA and we'll have a party!

So we went to this holiday party at good friends' last night. H made sure to steer clear of me. It was kind of hurtful, honestly. I kept thinking I'd be having a better time if he weren't there, but I didn't let that stop me. I found myself telling my friends I was ready to move forward. So I've said it now and other people know. One of my friends gave me a hug and said, "I'm sorry." I told her not to say "I'm sorry," but to say "Congratulations." Because I don't feel sad, I feel hopeful.

Funnily enough, H is starting to complain about my GAL. I find that kind of hilarious. I went to lunch yesterday for one of my closest friend's birthdays and the day before that I took S9 to therapy and lunch afterwards. I told him next week on Weds I had IC and was going to lunch afterwards. He said I was being presumptuous about all these plans. I am going to check with him first for any other plans, but otherwise ignore it.