I had a talk w/H on the phone and he was explaining that the "H" is spent a nice weekend w/was that guy, my guy (for the most part) who watches movies, laughs, eats dessert first, and is tender w/me.
NOw he's flipped guy who hates "my H" guy. Eeww, this is crazy talk! He's so different, two faces of H!
There's the pain and agony I am facing, I live with an H who is two in one, depending on his brain, and not fun like peanut butter & chocolate.
Even when I talk about him leaving, there are two different reaction, what I got today, arrogance and stand. And, what I get on the flip - expression of regret and hope!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
