What I am learning from H stages.

[albamarie]

Journaling: Ok, I'm going to keep this really short.

Bad day w/H, I told him to leave, I said go, I said get the hell out of my house, H finally stood up and was about to get his coat when he repeated what I said, and stated that I would have to do better than that as he sat back down.

As were speaking I repeated that I wanted him to go, nothing!

It's all about ea and my zero tolerance warning about him visiting her, so I acted on my threat and got nothing. I said go - he said if he wanted to go, he could have a long time ago, but he doesn't, and he always come home.

I said her or me because I won't tolerate it and she is hurting us, he said it's not a choice, he's home she's a friend.

I want to rip his face off! Why won't he leave? what am I to do? I can't live with this/him anymore, I am stuck!

I was so happy the last few days not talking to him and even the thought of him going today was making me excited. What is the next step, leave? But, its my house!