W brought us dinner for 3rd time this week.

Positive DM says she is trying to show us love:AOS are her LL after all. Hard to serve her when she's not here, though I do keep house clean and ready for her visits, and today when I learned she was coming, turned up the heat and put on a fire in fireplace for her benefit. She couldn't stay and eat, her former 2nd job colleagues invited her to Xmas party.

Negative DM says she has ulterior motives, which I am not going to type because positive in control right now and I want to keep it that way as long as possible.

Meanwhile my LL's are PT and QT and those tanks are empty. Knowing she is expressing her LL is encouraging, though. And she hugged me goodbye.

I think the visit went ok. S16 was in a mood but not terrible. She seems fine with Xmas plans still not discussed in detail. Says she'll be here, but no details, and I really think she might think I know exactly what she's thinking, on this subject and many others. We really need communication work.............waiting..

I read something helpful earlier: it's very difficult to think negatively while smiling. smile and, if you hold a fake smile for long enough, your brain goes ahead and makes it real.

I've used it twice this evening to shut down the crazy man.

I've known this forever, used it to help my kids, me, students in the past. I am amazed at how many things I knew I have forgotten since this started.

So if you are on the east coast and see a tall, athletic guy grinning like an idiot, you may have found me. smile


Me 46 W 43
S 21 D 18 S 17
M 22 yrs
Discovered OM 9/10/12
W moved to sister's 9/15/12
W moved to OM 9/27/12
Tried to DB until 7/13
W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve.
I counter filed 12/2/13.