DBing to save myself

[LisaLost]

i feel like i am losing my mind right now. why rub their crap in my face? its breaking my resolve she laughing at me over the phone that was suppose to be a convo with me and H about our son H letting her call me pathetic and worthless and to hear him not even defend me To hear him say I am useless and he never loved me and he would have stayed with every woamn he left me for but God had plans for him and her to be togther they are best freinds and she is classy something I will never be.they supposedly thought they hung up but one didnt and I got to hear hear him tell her I never meant in al those years nothing but babysitter he said she has to realize that she has ruined my life and bet she cant sleep bc she ruined her kids family the one thing she wanted for them , the 26 year old said yeah she is a f'ed up head case if i were her I would kill myself I couldnt live with what she put you nd her kids though I dont know wheat he said but its not true and I was feeling so strong but to hear this has broken me I have thought I was going right and I messed up my kids lives .

anybody know whats its like to ne laughed at bcyou loved someone a nd are called pathtic and useless i dont kow what else to do but type I am so hurt i know heis a horrible person but cut me some slack

i cant btrath I am crying so hard I am so hurt