Here it is December 21....and we have yet to talk about Christmas plans. Maybe he thought the world would end lol. I've been waiting for him to ring it up, all he mentioned once was about coming over early to watch D open presents. I have plans made, so not like I am expecting anything from him (or that he would be gong along to my family) but I'm sure his family wants to see D too. He's coming over tonight to work on D's Christmas present with me. And tomorrow we have plans to go to a Christmas lunch and take D to the park. Then he's going out for a friends birthday party at a bar - to which he posted yesterday on fb that they should all 'get so drunk they will need to take cabs'. Funny from the guy who told me last month that he doesn't like beer or bars anymore. And also funny that he has been to a bar or at a friends having beers probably every saturday since he's been gone.
And then there is New Years. I'm sure he will make plans for that as well. My past several New Years have really sucked, might as well continue the tradition.....
What's really been bothering me these days is that he wants me at his family things, wants to spend time with me (and D) at the house or outings on Saturdays - but it's like he only wants to spend time with me in public as 'mom'. And really I guess it's that I need to detach more....but then I still get stuck in the feeling that detaching more is not a good thing for him, and I need the interaction we have too. So I still go on doing things and don't make plans around him, try not be somewhat vague and not so there whenever he texts etc. Guess I just needed to get this out (again!) Anyone have comments or suggestions? Am I even making sense?
