Almost Over...

[Dewayne]

Btw. I've recognized all my faults of being a not so great husband.

1. Didnt' show as much affection as I could have
2. Didn't always help with the house etc
3. I had a habit of saying things that hurt her feelings like when at my parent's house etc.
4. Was selfish in the bedroom sometimes.
5. Didn't show enough appreciation

All of which I truly feel are things worth working on to save a marriage. She said to me "Well I served you before, why didn't you change then?" I told her it wasn't long enough, I was back in 2 weeks adn I didn't learn. Told her this was a mack truck hitting me and put me on rock bottom. I truly do know what I need to do now.

I really believe she's having trouble accepting what she's done. She mentioned it before, saying like "I don't know if I can trust myself to be committed anymore" Add on the previous statements in the marriage "Why are you still with me? Why are you so good to me?" I always told her "Because I love you". I had online counseling with phone sessions. Both counselors (switched at a point) told me seh may have been snapped into a pre-MLC or transition. I believe it may be true because she's now saying things like "I need to soul search. I wasn't happy with us or where we were at. I'm not at a point in life where I'm happy" And talking about going back to school to do the Vet thing.

In a FB msg she's mentioned 2 or 3 times... well let me grab the excerpt:

"i'm sorry i dont call or text much and dont talk to you. i need to more. i had the idea for us to call and talk with jordan. of course we would talk too. it was my idea. idk why you didnt call to talk to her last night. ill try to not get so busy and call you if u dont call us.
im not using you. i dont hate you. marsha doesnt hate you. chris doesnt care. darrells being protective. brent is ... brent. aaron doesnt care so long as its not u thats been mouthing bout me and i told him you werent. scarlett has her own issues and nothing i say can change her mind. ive tried. honestly. ryan is open to you but out of touch. he will only turn his back if i ask him to and i wont.
i do love you. we spent 11 years together. but a lot happened during that time and life got crazy for me. i just need time and space. im not happy with us or where we were. i wanted out. im sorry it was like this but thank you for the papers. i want to still be friends and see where we lead, if ur still up for it. i just want to soul search right now and if we were meant to be then i do believe we should start fresh; forget the past altogether for our new lives."

Any opinions on this?