But yes, it finally just dawned on me a couple of days ago that if he had just went quietely, I think I would've been out of these horrible bouts of confusion 6 months after he left. Things are actually all re clicking with me again. It's like I had to learn through the pain, and then apply what I've learned all over again. Im relieved to really understand that this doesn't have anything to do with me, but yet it still stings that all my hopes and dreams went down the toilet with my XH. When it gets down to it, I just miss my friend.
Geez AJ, you don't strike me as a bipolar narcissist! Holy Crap that's venom spew at it's finest!
This is my only significant relationship, my only marriage I've had. I didn't think how he was acting was Normal for a normal divorce process, but at the same time I didn't know. I even told him once that we weren't acting like people that were divorcing. Guess what, he even got pissed about that!He then explained to me that he would expect me to drive over to his house and check on the kids if he had to work early in the morning like I did and they were alone. Funny considering the days he has had to work very early, he wouldn't allow the kids to spend the night with him cause he wouldn't be there! LOL.
Geez AJ, thats how I fee about XH. Technically these contacts would be considered no big deal, but I know him too well. I agree it's his way of making sure I don't forget about him. The longest he's not contacted me was 3 months. Since then he can't seem to go 2 weeks without it, and he makes first contact now.
Something kinda startled me today. D13 made a slide show of her life today, but when I saw pictures of XH, I got struck with lightning again. Very similar to the way I felt when I met him for the second time at 18 years old. Damn it! Must be my empath vibes kicking in again and the Holidays making me weak.
I finally after all this time got Jim Conways book Men in Midlife Crisis from amazon this morning. it will be here in the morning. I did xmas shopping at 4:30 this a.m., now that's shopping!
