Thanks for everyone's support the last couple of days. I really have been upset and angry. I've just increased meditation and realized I haven't been to the gym since surgery.
Sometimes I get confused on this forum from advice. I admit it.
Basically in summary:
-I can either confront her about OM txting or not. Its that simple. If I choose to confront make it simple. I find it disrespectful and hurtful and I will no longer continue to pay for your phone bill if the behavior continues. Expect backlash and don't react. DO THIS FOR MYSELF. Not for weight or pull. For myself.
-I need to continue to take the focus off her while not being allowed to be a doormat. As in above and the words she sometimes speaks to me in.
-I can detach and let go while living under the same roof although it isn't easy. I need to stop letting her MOODS and her ACTIONS dictate mine.
-GAL. I need to consistantly increase GAL activities with or without kids to create the space I need from her. And vice
-I do have email correspondence going with EE.org. They want me to attend Philly session in February. Actually would be short flight for me.
-I probably need to start think about some codependcy support group and maybe even a divorce support group. (I'm pretty much divorced under same roof)
Does anyone recommend a reading about "Distancer and pursue etc.." Someone mentioned letting the bird out of the cage or along those lines. Would love to hear a recommendation. I truly feel I'm pursuing W or get reeled back into her when it's convenient for her.
I made some angry posts today because frankly I'm upset. I shouldn't make posts like that. It fuels negativity. I just finished up meditation and feel a lot better right now.
I am going to try to get out and play cards tonight. I will post if I do. This is actually a huge step for me because I feel stuck in a rut lately with this. Today I felt depressed all day long. Haven't felt like that in awhile. Maybe I need to go tanning.
