You're right, I gotta control myself. I do love her but there is such hate and distain that comes from her to me. It is hard to take that abuse for so long. I really don't deserve it either yet I know what is driving it in her and it is not all me but it hurts anyway. It's been almost 8 months since we did it and usually we were 2-3x week at least...so this is a loooong time for me ... since I was a teenager. Going to dinner with one of these women tonight...I will draw the line...I think. W made me feel pretty crappy earlier today, yesterday, and well for several months and could give a rats *rse about me. She is prepping the kids about moving and talking to them about room color choices. They are not pleased with her about this and she does not see their angst. My D10 tells her "No, we are not moving!" and then asked her “Why are you and daddy not going to live together?" and W responds with feigned sympathy "I know how you feel", to which D10 snaps back at her "No you don't! How could you know???!!!". W shut down and said nothing more and went to bed. I missed this conversation but D14 told me about it. She sees how her mother is with her sister so she’s afraid to speak up herself she says.
M17 yrs. me49 xW47 d15 d11
BD1-Jul/11(Affair found out) Therapy 9 months (tried 2) BD2- May/12(sep) Court Jul/13 - I got 50/50 Sold home - Aug/13 Court #2 - Dec/13 Court#3 - Apr/14 ... She lost again We settled.
