i'm joining you in hoping this is having some effect in life that is good in the long run.
i'm feeling kind of nutty- took a little baby tranquilizer i have around from ancient times (they're soooo old- but still seem to take the edge off) it's amazing how long - maybe five years at least!! YAY!!!
ANYWAY- feeling a bit chilled. visited like mad - long and hard. this guy is funny- but sure can talk. we clash over politics a bit- but it was fun - even dragged him over to visit with mom since knows her too from olden days. nice change of pace for her-
so- painted this morning for last several hours, just an little project i wanted to make for several friends & my neice. they came out good- so yay -just need to finish and gliter up a bit.
need to wash hair and go shop- h called a couple times from the flea market in fl - about somestuff he was finding- should he get- did i want? i swear- sometimes it's so same as my life used to be- i forget it's not. that nothing has changed (i guess anyway- in his head or heart).
i don't like fee3ling exiled. and i do. he doesn't get it- that fl was my place to live for 30+ years too. i don't know what to think or do about me being more demanding- i sure am not a demanding person. i'd prefer to have what is offered in life- rather than be demanding.
never sure if it's genuinely given if i DEMAND. KNOW WHAT i mean? oh well- i'm too tired to go around and round in my brain today- onto the hair- the shopping- dropping off mom's laundry - etc. lots of "chores" which i totally fritter my life away doing- which actually - don't mean a thing - just hampster in the wheel.
i need some meaning & purpose- auhhhh- me and everyone in the universe huh? i'd say the eternal quest of most humans- find meaning....
wish me luck. i'm working on sending out vibes to the universe for a really really superlative 2013 and changes that make us all happier - i'll leave it there.
hope your day is good- i'd love some snow. we've had really alot of rain and rathr warmish weather- i'm soo discomboobilated - i don't care much. maybe i'll start caring today and get some spirit- a girl can hope0==
