My Fears in GALing

[newman7977]

First off sorry for any typos since I can only use my phone at this moment.

I thought about consulting you guys first. I see I have 3 options right now:

1) start sleeping in s13s room there's an extra bed there;

2) ask w if we could divi up the MBR again;

3) keep trying to contain myself and continue to sleep together.

A little background, I was doing so well not to ML for about 3weeks now up until this morning. I was doing good until I start dreaming that I was ML to my W just like the old days, it seemed so real. And so I woke up caressing her, she pushed me and I begged and she finally said "ok just do it" in an angry tone. Yep you heard it, I begged the major no-no in DBing.

Yes now that's its done I feel crap, low, cheap you name it. How can I protect my W to the monster me? I have such a high sex drive that's even haunting me in my dreams! Is there any herbs to kill this drive? When I don't get this I feel cranky, depress, sad...

This is the one thing that's really pushing my W at this moment because she doesn't feel anything for me. I understand that but how come I keep thinking about it? And I know this goes back to my failing to detach.

How bad is it really to move out of the marital bed? Is this gonna impact any custody battles in case of a D?

Yes feeling really sh!tty right now send me your 2x4's I need to read something that will go through my stupid brains.

Right now I feel that I won't do it again and then in 3-4 days the cycle comes back again...I dread me going to this cycle. Definitely an issue I will bring up to my IC.

But what about you guys any insights on this? And your thoughts on my options above?

Newman