I have my times where I just want to be done with him. He has done nothing but lie for so long. He has turned into someone my Ds and I don't know. It's like my H and their Dad just disappeared. My Ds are so bitter about everything that has happened. Then there are the times when I remember how much I love my H, but he's lost. I am so confused on what to do. I guess I really don't have to do anything right now. Just take each day as it comes. I will find out soon enough which feeling takes over for the both of us. If he continues to be this other man, he won't want to come back anyway. Why is it that we are so open to taking back these people that have devastated our lives so much? Why can't I just stay mad at him for good? It hurts to know that I didn't have a choice at first. He made the choice to leave me. That stinks. He made the choice to cheat, to walk out, to withhold money. Now I want to be the one making the choices.
