Thanks for your reply. Yes, I do want to move out ASAP. I am graduating this month. (YAY at least I can say that) Originally, me and H planned to come back to his parents place and move out once we both get a job somewhere. But, this A thing happened, I moved back, he didn't. I was staying here hoping that he would come back at first but it seems impossible right now. So now I'm trying to find a job and move out then. Staying here now helps me to save on some money too (actually, I don't know now since it mentally gave me so much pressure, not sure if money is worth it.) But I do want to move out ASAP. I feel very dependent right now, it is my weakness, I wasn't like this before, but I realized that I changed into a very dependent person to H, I'm slowly getting back to myself though.
Yeah, I think you are right. I talked to my dad about it, and he thought what I planned to do makes no sense. I did feel better hanging out with parents, I feel truly free and love with them.
I guess I was hoping to show him that I am not what he thought i was, I just want him to be able to talk to me. My dad said I had unrealistic hopes. I guess I do..
I'm crying right now, just hear from H for the first time in months.
