UPDATE: Denver , everyone. Hello! Haven't been here for a long time!! My stomach did a little flip as I logged on. WHen do those feelings go away?? Wierd.
Things are going fine here. Sooo busy, like everyone. Seems like I am the one having a tough time the last month. Not exactly sure why. But H did come home one year ago on T giving so I think just this time of year brings back memories of how hard all that was. We do have so much fun together but he is just so unable to deal with stress with out barking at me or kids. And, every so often I just want to say "how dare you..." A lot more recently. I want the past to be the past but it does rear its ugly head with me. Not him.
Some days are worse than others for me. I feel like right now I am watching for signs again of him being "unhappy' and then I am torn by thinking well if hes acting crabby do I act "as if" or do I act mopey(old behavior) until he realizes and apologizes!! I know- real mature!! I guess I still feel like he should be thanking his lucky stars that he has his family back. Which means no crabbiness, etc. Please someone straighten me. I really not worried that anything is up. I suppose I should be using the stop sign method again. I have been fixating on the OW a lot lately too?!?/ I went off my wellbutrin about a month ago and think I may need to get back on. I need some encouragement. Thanks.
