Afa - Just read your entire thread (all 19 pages). There is a ton of good info from the vets in this post!!!
I just wanted to say it sounds like you are doing really good in a pretty tough sitch. Just keep up the good work and PMA. I'll be tracking from now on and trying to give some encouragement. I really relate to the emotional roller coaster you're on.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are