I'm so glad you had the courage to reach out to another person. It doesn't imply weakness and it is wise to do so when you feel so low you don't want to go on.

One thing I'd like to respond to what you said:

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I pray every day that God will see it in his heart to give us a 2nd chance. I know all things are possable threw him. God hates divorce as well. so i keep hoping.


I agree that it isn't God's desire to see M end in D, even when we chose very badly. But please don't set yourself up to think it's about Him giving you a second chance. You already know His stand on D, right? I believe relationships are usually left up to the free will in people. However, He certainly is in your corner here, and He will give you the strength and guidance you need. I also believe He can accomplish anything and He can work things together for your good.

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!