needing to re-construct what the heck has gone on I hear you, but my experience is that there are no answers that will satisfy me enough to justify or make me feel any better.
it was my personality and decision to be trusting & put good spin on things. - no one has feelings at all but him.....
That's how I feel...like I was fooled or a fool. I guess that's what it feels like to be hit sideways. But, we have to get past that feeling in order to get back to ourselves.
Life has become all about H, no one else matters, deserves respect or has a hard time in life. That's who they are now I guess, maybe always deep down it was who there really where.
We are the best people we know...why is it so hard to give us the same kid glove treatment we give them? I really don't want to go back to my R as now that I am on the outside looking back, it was not enough for me.
H was not enough of a giver of himself, there were yrs of isolation which translates to neglect for me. ME! YOU! WE have to learn these are better words to use in our vocabulary!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
