Good Morning All

Detachment
Well I am really struggling with the concept of detachment. I know it is something I must do, but boy it is hard. Pulling away from someone you have adored/worshipped for 20 years. It is a constant battle of Heart v Head! It feels so alien to me, though it is made a little bit easier when I know I am not detaching from the person I love, but the person she is currently imitating. I also feel doing this is showing W that I am over her, that I do not need her and she can move on. I know this isn’t the case but that thought is still there.

Getting A Life (GAL)
Again I am struggling to organise things to do which do not involve my W. Though there are many things I am interested in, getting the motivation to do these things is hard. When I am out doing the activities, I am so glad I did. I can even forget my current plight for a few hours. But it takes a lot of will power to get me going.

I have come to realise that I rely so much on my W. This has been a real eye opener for me.

Have a good day all.

WorriedUK


Me48; W44
M20; T25
S17 & S15
Bomb (IDLYA) 27/10/12
Still living together