The green green grass of home. (Part 2 )

[Soul.Searching]

What a selfish bastard! Lol
I see now more of what is going on with H. He is buying himself everything he ever wanted but we couldn't afford. He has brought pretty much a brand new wardrobe. Top of the line gadgets. Now the motorbike licence and he has choose. The motorbike he is buying on finance.
Now on Friday comes the tattoos!! This is all stuff he has wanted for a long time but we couldn't afford it. If he hasent spent hundreds of dollars every week on food and alochol, maybe we could have.
He is apparently not buying the kids much because he hasent got much money!! Ummm okay! I wish that was my definition of not much money!!
Damn if over $1500 to blow on myself was not much money, of be laughing!!
He was supposed to have the kids this weekend, then he said he can't.
Well now he told me he was supposed to go out on Friday but not he is getting the kids names tattooed on to him, he wants to pick them up to show the off to the kids. Oh my hero!!

What an arse face! He is the most selfish person I know!! It seems he is even more determined to get all this done as quickly as possible, since I said I was done being friends. He is just a totally selfish arse!

Oh well, it's none of my business right!!

I haven't been feeling to good the last couple of days. My whole body has been aching and I've just felt really run down.
I've been falling asleep early but still been so tired.

I felt like I was going to pass out at work today. I was dizzy at one stage but it didn't last long. I'm feeling okay ATM, I'm just hoping it lasts because I want to take my kids out tonight to look at Christmas lights. I also have a whole heap of stuff I need to get done with the kids in the next few days.
Now H is taking them this weekend I need to get it all done before then.
He hasent decided if he was taking them but I told him he had to because I couldn't work out my [censored], until he had worked out his, so he better take them!

I'm not feeling sad right now, more of just,.., he is such an arse face.
Not really angry, not really surprised, just,.., I don't really know how I'm feeling actually. Lol