Labug....if she had not left, my feelings would be totally different. I own my actions. I hurt her, long term and am responsible for it. She is responsible for my feelings.

Sorry, this is victim talk.

She may have hurt you but you're responsible for what you do with that from now forward.

That is a conscious choice.

What are you afraid of?

Is it the fear that she will stay gone or is it that her leaving you somehow lessens you?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss