Another tough day. It's a;ways been tough but the last couple days especially so. I think it's because of the holidays. I am wrestling with myself not to contact her, not to email, not to text. So far the part of my that knows I shouldn't is winning, but it is a battle...I don't know if having hope, even without expectation, is futile. I don't know if I'm lying to myself that this could ever happen. I know if I asked her now she would say no, it couldn't. It's not what she has said in the past, it may not what she says in the future, but I think it's what she would say now.
I wish I knew of, or read more life stories, where it did happen with our divorced couples. It would give me hope and make me stronger to keep moving. Almost all the stories I read where it happens are with couples that have kids. The kids keep them seeing each other. Without kids, there is no reason to see each other.
