Finally approaching the starting line!

[eyesopen]

A little journaling...This morning when w came over for the kids I mention that on Wednesday I woudn't be home til around 5 and that I had child care lined up for the couple hours that I won't there. Told her it was my X-mas party for work. She gave me a quick reply of "thanks for inviting me." It was said with a nice smile. A little play on our exchange from yesterday.

Sometimes I feel like I am grasping at straws, but as my coach said last night, these are positive interactions. So I need to keep reminding myself to stay on this path, things are changing.

Also I have found that when I am feeling down, or letting my thoughts drift to her, I say a mental f@#k her. Not meant meanly, more like a whatever. Don't worry about it. Focus on you. Some people envision a stop sign, since I don't swear a lot, that word seems to carry more weight.