Stuck between a hard place and the biggest rock.

[Big Bruce]

Hi everybody,
I bought a nice cashmere cardigan, sober but classy, for W, and a card. For S, it is a little red tractor battery powered he can ride on.
I don't expect to receive anything, but we'll see.

As for my activities, already when I was with W I gave up the extreme stuff, so W wasn't too worried. Paragliding and hors-piste ski are relatively mild compared to the previous craziness. W just wasn't happy about the importance it had in my life.
I married a girl who couldn't scuba-dive, rock-climb, mountainbike, etc.. so I guess it's kinda natural she didn't place those things a so important in her life, whereas for me they were why we're living for.

Also, I always had a gift for piano, painting, architecture, maths, litterature, physics, chemistry, being n 1 in school and all,.. at some point I was asked to be a model and also politically they wanted me to take responsibilities (which I refused) and probably people would have voted for me because I talk and appear well.
My rythm of life and busyness had little to do with her idea of average american guy. Right now, I'm living a life of going to work, coming home to eat supper, sleep and start over the next day. Here, none of the previous stuff is doable, but I'm here for the sake of being with W and S .--> If this isn't loving sacrifice, then what is?

So,
1.I take it gratefully that she is acting all nice around me lately. I myself am very upbeat and debonnaire when she's around. (although inside, it's a volcano).

2. Making some space. I asked her out for Friday evening by email. She knows it, no need to insist, call or send e-mails.

3. Seeking more time with S. If we cannot work out with W a progressive parenting plan/agreement that leads to 50/50%, I won't bluff on the court thing, I'll launch the motions thing, no matter the cost. And before the judge I must have all the arguments so he grants me my petition. Therefore : I must increase my time alone with S.

4. Finally, keep my expectations low, keep DBing, don't expect a fanfare for every 180 I do, and be patient in actions, not so much in words.

I have it all pat down. Way to go.
Thanks.
B.