So now...today is Tuesday the 18th and I feel horrible. I'm starting to think that its all over. In April when he said ILYBINILWY I never thought that by the end of the year we'd still be apart. And after this last episode of him coming back and going right back to the OW, I don't feel like anything is improving. I actually still feel like I did 6 months ago, AGAIN, after starting to get my life and attitude back in shape. By him coming back, leading me to believe that there was hope and a chance I am totally convinced he's not doing that. I want to say that its another hump that has to be climbed; I mean I thought that in September when we were intimate and OW found out about us and she took him back that it was over. But when I detached I did notice in about 4-6 weeks that he wanted to know more of what I was doing and even started sending me funny texts that seemed playful. But since 12/5 when he moved out to be with her again I was thinking how dumb can she be? How dumb could I be? Her BF was with his wife. That's not wrong! She has taken him back twice now.
So I'm just venting. Its not feeling very festive for me this holiday season and its actually kind of tormenting. But then I thank God for my kids and grandkids and that's the only thing that makes me feel better.
M-59 H-58 2 S, 1 D 2 Gr. Ch. T 20 YRS M 17 YRS ILYBINILWY 4/21/12 Caught H and OW 5/25/12 H Left 6/5/12
"Do not regret growing older...It is a privilege denied to many."
