Summary of week of operation. Had tonsils and other stuff done last Monday the 10th. At the time I felt it was a big inconvenience for my W. My surgery. Rightfully so. She doesn't want to be married and pretty much doesn't like me and now she has to help me. Anyways I ended up getting a ride to the H. She did come visit with the kids briefly and did pick me up the next day.
I ended up being home Tues-Sunday. I thought it went ok considering we had to be around each other a lot more then usual (out of work) and I wasn't feeling good at all. Tough recovery and I'm still not eating a week later. I am back to work this week.
My phone has been unlocked since that original thread I posted. I know she knows because my D uses my phone ALL the time and she even mentioned it in front of my W and me. My D (3) basically asked me why I don't have passcode anymore in front of me and W. I just said Daddy was tired of putting it in etc..
At first I thought this was breaking down a barrier between me and her. She seemed to be less secretive with her phone (and actually she is but times she is still is. Drew don't zing me here I am just journaling what is working and what is not)
She actually pretty much told me she was txting OM (longtime HS friend who hit on her while we were separated) I guess that whole school shooting. He is part of special interogation forces and was at the scene. I didn't react. I just sort of talked to her about it. One part of me says "well at least she telling me she txting him, other part of me says doesn't she realize she is smack dab in the middle of EA. I mean she knew his work schedule and that the last 3 months what he was working on. She honestly has been txting this OM now for almost 2 years and hasn't stopped through all our turmoil. Again I can't control this but beyond annoying.
We did decide to go out and get a family bunny. Kids love her and a pretty neat pet.
Anyways. Just journaling a little here. No major changes. I still struggle with anxiety of holidays ending and her filing. I try to throw a big stop sign up when those thoughts come into my head.
I am starting Chi Qong back up this week. I've had stents in my nose for a week and literally got them out yesterday.
