Stop texting or having phone conversations until you can control your thoughts.

I think I said this early on, you get in trouble when you talk.

The last text convo you posted, read it again. Do you see how you were putting pressure on her, making her responsible for your feelings?

About the patience, do or not do, there is no try.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss