Going dark is so hard. I just realized after not seeing H for almost 3 weeks how much I missed him and I how much it hurts. I think not seeing him or hearing from him makes NC a lot easier. THEN last night, DD and I kinda got into it because of school/exams. I was already hurting and just need her to step up and makes things easier for me. I sent him a text that just said "

Me: 41
H: 43
M: 21 yrs
DD: 15

1st bombshell: 2002 - 6 months
2nd bombshell/moved out: 10/03/2012
OW: 10/12/2012
Signed MDA & PP: 11/20/12; but not submitting
Confirmed OW living with H: 11/21/12