Trying really hard to be Thankful today...

[Sweetbriar]

So last night H dropped the Mexico bomb on me. I already knew he was going...(or trying to go...) but he texted me and just said that he "needed to let me know he was going to Mexico from 12/28 to 1/3) I just responded, a bit later, "sounds fun" and left it at that. I am extremely bitter over this, being that Im pregnant and home taking care of EVERYTHING and he can plan a leisurely trip. I wanted to text back and ask if he was taking OW, but I refrained...but this is consuming my mind.

I am very angry this morning and having a hard time...should I ask anymore questions or just let it go?? I will have anxiety until this trip is over and I hate that he can still do this to me. I will say, this answered the questions of whether he will be involved in my last sonogram...I cannot have a man there who really could care less about anyone but himself. I would much rather go alone. In fact, Im off to an appt this morning, alone...getting used to it.

I just really cannot believe that he thinks that telling me (before Christmas)he is heading to Mexico was the right thing to do:( It really opened my eyes to the fact that he doesnt give a Sh*t about me, the kids or the baby...when will I finally see that?

I just needed to write here this morning instead of texting him my angry thoughts, that Im not even writing here....