first time - need help still

[albamarie]

Hi Nero - For the yrs leading up to this and even at times now still, I am a little afraid of a social life. THat's crazy, I know! But then, it felt like I would be sending him the message that I will just live without you if your going to be such a dud.

Now, I sometimes feel like I am showing him I don't need him or I'm moving on. I don't care if he thinks that though as long as it is for him to take a look at himself, not to chuck it all and say oh well.

But, I am only hurting myself, not that the door is being knocked down from friends.

I don't like being alone either, only child, but you sure do seem to keep busy. Tomorrow I'm going to get out to the mall and pick up some jewelry I pre ordered for myself, and get some idea's for dinner. Not real exciting!

Check out my movie suggestion! I love movies and popcorn! Even by myself!