4311, I just want to add to my post above that these boards can be quite active and sometimes they can be really slow. Post your thoughts, use this board as a journal, if you would like. It is helpful and as you progress, it can possibly help others and also give you your own feedback loop in the future. ie. Thoughts now may make sense or be more clear to you if you read them again a month from now or 3 months from now.
That said, I feel for you and I have no doubt many who might be reading this thread silently feel for you and your sitch. We are all living our own similar journeys, even though they are unique in themselves.
I'm glad you ordered DB and DR. While you may find some of the information is the same, DR is compiled and printed later and has a slightly different format. Almost more like a workbook or reference guide. They are both great resources in their own right.
Keep reading around here. You may likely see yourself in many sitches and in many places within the board including the Newbies section, the WAS section, and the MLC section. Think about how you fit based on your thought processes now, 5 months ago, 6 years ago, and 20 years ago.
This is a journey of learning, of enlightenment, of courage, and of growth.
