Finally approaching the starting line!

[eyesopen]

May have done something non DBing earlier. My w has her Christmas party tonight and when I picked up the kids I told her that I liked her shirt and that her hair looked nice.

Those are things I have been trying to do when she seems receptive which has been a lot lately.

So I thought maybe I would flirt a little and told her that if I didn't have plans with the kids I would love to go with her, thanks for asking, but maybe next time. Even though she didn't ask. Trying to add a little humor in our interactions. And I did get a smile.

Her response was that it woud be weird going with me since we are getting a divorce. This was the first mention of d in a few weeks.

This is where I should have shut my mouth, but I told her I couldn't let go of our family. Her reply is that we will always be a family. I said that it doesn't work that way for me. And that was the end of that conversation.

The strange part about it, is this whole conversation took place while she was holding my hand trying to get a sliver out of my finger. Which she didn't ask to help when see saw me working on it. She just grabbed my hand and started to help. First physical touch she has initiated in, well since I don't remember.

I feel like we are getting closer lately and it has me feeling down. That is the part I don't understand.