I know I have to let her decide what she wants to do, and I have to stay calm and not let her know it is killing me inside. I really don't know if I am strong enough for this. I thought I was out of tears. I hate this!!
Sorry that I am feeling so weak this morning. Just needed to put it down in words, does make me feel a little bit better.
am in your shoes also- i hate it- i feel like a wreck all the time- and i agree totally. it is the hardest thing in the universe and we do need to talk about it (THO WE NEED to keep mum). i am home alone for couple weeks- h in fla - he is seeing ow at this moment . i could croak- or scream - or whatever. like you- i get weak and waiver in my resolve. i wonder if i have the stamina for this too- i guess we all do.
i'm just sayin- feel your pain & never would have ever thought anything could feel this bad. h & I share bed since bomb- it's been hell- i don't have any wisdom, just sympathy & fellow-feeing. i guess since we're both here & trying this- i'll say we both need to keep at it- keep quiet & what? hope- pray- whatever it takes to get thru another day.
good luck - know we understand your pain... I find it soooo sad to thnk of all of us here at this forum- at the mercy of all those other guys out there tormenting us- geeez - not much justice is there?
