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[cantslowdown]

Do you KNOW he is comfortable lying? I know that I lied, but I was never comfortable with it. I was ashamed of it and the things I lied about. I couldn't sleep. It always made me sick. When i finally came clean with everything, (to someone who seems to be on the way out anyway) it was a load off my conscience. Even if it doesn't work out for me, I can now live life honestly and truthfully in line with what I believe. It is hard. Its not the lies I told my spouse that were the worst, but the ones I told myself. The ones where SOMEDAY I would be able to clean up my messes with no one knowing and then I would be at peace. Unfortunately that is not the way it works.