Just read up on your thread mAstersolo, and just realized you and you're w are about the same age as me and my eX. Also you've been together for about the same time as me and my eX.
It is hard to imagine how a life without them will look like after all this time together. In the end I think it will be fine either way. I have a close friend who went through this a couple years ago, he was chrushed. TOTALLY. Almost to the point where I though he would never be consolable. It took him a long time to recover, but now his whole life has taken a 180 and he is very happy with his present situation.
Listen to what people say about not believing what your W says. My X is the same, some days nice and happy and other days treat me like the bubonic plague. Downright mean and disrespectful. Happy to be rid of me etc. Meanwhile her spotify feed(which I unsubscribed, but still shows for some reason) is full of heartbreak songs from time to time. Lyrics like "Couldn't see what was right in front of me. And now that I'm alone all I have is the emptiness of being free"
So detach from the crazyness for the time being and focus on you, go mONstersolo and GAL!
Together for 8,5 years. S2 Interest in OM. She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out. No signs of OM, not digging. Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.