Stuck between a hard place and the biggest rock.

[Big Bruce]

Mes amis,
Thanks for your input. I know that if you're a little harsh sometimes, it is for my good.

As a general rule, I may have said things three days ago, but if I say something opposite, it just means I changed opinions. After all, I'm here to receive advice, and if I think it's good, then I changed my views. So don't be surprised if in a week I shift my position on a certain aspect of the question.
Sometimes it sounds like a ploy, but hey DBing is A STRATEGY. There are even "techniques" in the book. I'm just more consciently applying them.

The fact that W behaves as if nothing happened when she's around is disturbing. She acts as if we were best friends/lovers (except for the contact and endearment terms), which I don't know how to interpret.
Sure I appreciate it, but when I see this toddler steps, it gives me more hope than I should have. It makes me think things are clear, and I want to rush, and just tell her :"see, we get along well! Now that you see this, come on, move in with me!" type of thing.
But I mustn't.

While for the moment I am only saying words that suggest new priorities (180s), it's been 6 months now that I haven't seen a mountain, jumped off a cliff, touched a rifle, free-dived or been on a mountainbike. And she knows it, so it's not just empty words either.

Yes, I confess that parenting is new to me, but slow or fast transition, I have to learn at some point to change nappies, feed S, put him to sleep, etc..
S knows me quite well, we've been playing for two hours twice week since 6 months now. And he adapts very well to new people and situations, therefore I thought that after a couple of days/weeks at a daycare, he would have adapted super well. Now it seems that it would take longer. Thanks for the info, if he needs more time, not a problem. It is best in the end that he gets to spend as much time with W than with Papa, for his emotional, intelectual and social development.

I am not mad, I repeat, I am not mad, just disappointed. What I thought would be an eternal thing between W and I, is crumbling, and I can't seem to find the right things to do to save it.
Something is broken inside me, and I feel it will take a long time to heal.

Thanks for your help, it is going in the right direction. Bumpy, but we're progressing. The kudos was just to check if I was doing the right things.
A bientot,
Bruce