years later

[forward]

It's been many years now since X walked out w/OW. So much has happened.

As my sig shows, X's OW dumped him as soon as things got real. He then had an accident, nearly died, and got involved with a new woman who is very ill.

New Woman has now been given one month to live now, according to X. X has not had much happiness for a long time.

I have had happiness with New Guy, his girls, and my D. I struggled considerably on my own, more than I realized in some ways, but I have made it a point to be grateful for the many blessings in my life. I rebuilt my life and it is not perfect, but there are many, many good things and I am fortunate to have blessings like these.

I'm not going to lie and say that I wouldn't still like an apology, or to know why, or to somehow feel validated by X as a good wife and good person--to know that the long time we spent together mattered. I don't think I will ever have that acknowledgement, but I am more accepting of that uncertainty now.

And...all that matters less now. I am focused on the future w/New Guy, seeing our beautiful Ds grow up, and appreciating what life has had to offer. Simple things matter more to me now.

X lurks in the shadows, preoccupied w/New Woman and her tragedy. I have felt sad for her, but more so for our daughter, who very much needs his attention. X has improved w/parenting some. Otherwise, he is pretty much a lost soul. I feel sorry for him but do not confuse love and pity.