I don't know why, but as I was driving over to the house, I started crying and by the time I got there I was raw. I saw her dressed up with her night bag and I lost it. It was an emotional breakdown in front of her and the kids. She cancelled her plans and took the kids to her mom's house. Really Bad!
This far into it you shouldn't still be having breakdowns like this, have you had yourself evaluated for depression and possible treatments? Of course we all go through depression to some extent in these sitches, but if you're months into it and not seeing any improvement then steps need to be taken to reign it in. I think we tend to underestimate how damaging it can be to ourselves and to our efforts to DB. Having breakdowns in front of our spouses can derail months of efforts. When depression is properly treated then PMA comes MUCH easier and all areas of your life see immediate improvement.
