Oh Bug- Glad to hear you sound good. I would give about anything to have some time with new twins. I know with my own I was so overworked I barely remember it. I can certainly relate to your fears. I do many things because of fear. I really have to address it and try to determine what is a legit concern and what is unfounded. Some things are realistically things that need to be considered. Others are just in my head. Fears I brought with me from my past.