Stuck between a hard place and the biggest rock.

[MrBond]

"and now I'm showing that my family and our S are more important than me!"

Every time you mention this here, it sounds like a ploy and you're insincere. If you did something positive, good. It's just for you. Not for us.

"Please give me kudos. 8/10 at least, come on already!"

You're asking for kudos? Earn them first. Just do what you're supposed to do with your son and you won't need validation from others.