I'm so sorry, SS! (((()))) I KNOW that had to be so hard! I hope you can settle your mind that it was the right thing to do. The great thing is that just because it is what it is now doesn't mean it will always be that way. I hope you can focus on the positives of your future. You sound like a great person with great ideas and a lot of enthusiasm for life! Don't let that suffer because of "him." Your kids (and you!) need that right now.
Keep in touch with us here and we'll talk you through it.