Bklyn Gratitude

[BklynMom]

Huge accomplishment yesterday. I hooked up my DVD player all by myself and operated the whole system via remote. AMAZING!! Come on ladies I know you are impressed.

Just thought I would update. Girls & I have been moving forward with our lives and have been loving life. My job is coming to an end next week but it was such a great experience for me working full time again and hanging out with other peeps (including men) not just moms in the neighborhood. I have a new level in confidence in myself.

Divorce is moving forward with lawyers, I try to stay out of it as much as possible. My father is my lawyer so I trust that he has the best interest of the kids in mind. I know its not recommended to use your father as your lawyer but it has worked wonderfully for me. I feel very fortunate.

H continues to be very very angry at me. He still does not express his anger but in manifests in his lack of responses and his inability to participate in his kids lives because he is so angry.

Our D2 participated in a very cute local event and I emailed him the video. No response. It was odd. Seriously this is the cutest video you have ever seen and it was kind of a big deal so I thought that Dad would want to see it,.. but nothing no comment. I sent it to his parents as well and they thanked me and told me it was cutest thing they have ever seen.

Also I emailed him a week or two ago asking him what he thought about getting flu shots for the girls. I get very confused by the holistic people saying no vaccines and traditional medicine saying protect the kids, so I need help doing what is right for our girls. He replied "I don't know anything about flu shots so do what you think is best"

H relationship with his girlfriend is still some what a secret. Although he called me to tell me he had a girlfriend 4 months many of our mutual acquaintance don't know he is going out with someone. In general I don't mention it unless someone asks me, which is usually in the form of "Oh so why did you separate, does he have a girlfriend"

From what I know of his girlfriend she considers herself a respectable woman and not a home wrecker. i think both my STBX and she thought 1 1/2 yrs after he left home no one would "judge" them for being together but the fact is most of our acquaintances are in shock that he has left me & our girls.

The best advice that I received early on, on these boards was be the woman only a fool would leave. I was faking it for months. Forcing myself to take lessons, go out on Saturday nights and other GALisms, today I feel like I am that person only a fool would leave. I look great, I feel (mostly) great. Great things are happening in our lives, like D2 minor celebrity event - my STBX is a fool.

It still hurts sometimes because I love him dearly. But I count my blessings.

I am proud for showing my girls another way to deal with difficulties with grace and dignity. I believe these events will make me a better mom in the years to come.

I come to these boards all the time to remember that I am not alone, that there are others that are dealing with this same struggle, and that the solution is taking the high road and not letting anger get the best of me.