Changing Directions

[RegretfulLA]

Thank you guys for being compassionate and understanding. I know there are people on here that would say that even considering someone else is just wrong.

But, I've been down this path before. I think it's my duty in all of this not to let what happened last time happen this time (texting gone seriously awry). I may just have to tell Jake Ryan, "Look, I'm not available right now, but who knows, maybe I will be in a few months." He is D so I am sure he understands that grey area between together and not together. In fact at one my point my H told me to "date other people" but I don't think he meant that, and I'm not about to find out the hard way.

Yesterday H and I did have a pretty good discussion and it gave me hope for the future, but Hopeful, you are right... maybe it will never be what I really need it to be. This is what happened w OM1 - his presence made me question what I had, and question whether it could be what I needed, but we had a very deep and somewhat unexplainable connection which complicated things tremendously. Jake Ryan is cute but I doubt we are going to connect on that level.

Certainly was a huge ego boost though!!! I think I have to put last night in my pocket and pull it out whenever I need a smile.