SS, yes it hurts and it sux. I'm afraid you need to let him go, move on with your life. Look at yourself and make the changes you want to make in your life for you. What is it you would love to do in life, maybe it's to be a motorcycle racer lol? Just go for it. Live your dream and the rest will fall into place. Show your children how to have a fulfilled life. Sometimes life kicks us in the balls, it's really about how we respond to those pains that's important.
DB like crazy, write your 180's that you want to change. List your goals and be specific, what are you gonna do tomorrow to achieve them. Come on girl, lets get on with the rest of our lives!!! I'll say again DB like crazy and things will start to fall into place.
Just live!!!!!!!!!!
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
