I'm glad you had such a good time last night. It sounds like you focused a lot on you and look how good that felt.

After your experience last night, it may be a good time to ask yourself some of the questions 25 asked you a while back about whether or not you believe that your H is capable of the M that you would like and if he can treat you the way you would like.I

I'm guilty of some of the same feelings that you have. I never thought I was good enough for someone attractive. My H is attractive, at least to me, but he is a bad boy, which I am also attracted to.

The fact that you had a crush on him while working, and I'm guessing married, is another sign that you have not been happy for a while.

There's a difference between honoring the committment you made and being miserable and unfulfilled for the rest of your life. I'm at the same cross road. I can honor my committment, but my H has made it pretty clear that "for worse" doesn't apply to him. I'm committed to trying to work on the M, but there does become a breaking point.

Looks like you have some good things to ponder over the next few days!


M44 H57
D17 (special needs)
M 18 yrs
Bomb 7/2/12
Still living together