<if you had an opportunity to sit down with X2, what would you want her to know about the demise of that M?> I know this without a thought - I am angry that she didn't tell me how important to her me being engaged was. She did to me what I did to M1. M2 didn't tell me there were things that needed to be changed for her to continue to be happy. I didn't tell M1 the same thing.
What do you feel was the most important thing you learned from the demise of M2? <being aware, that's it, being aware. If I wanted to be disengaged and it was a conscience choice so be it. But it wasn't, I didn't know...I will never "not know" again. Every night I take 10min with all media off and have a conversation with myself. What am I not seeing, what am I not admitting, what am I unconsciously trying to disengage from...
<What is one thing you would never do again, in relation to M2?> I will never take it for granted that I can keep going down the same road and just hope that it will get better. Even though I didn't know what the problem was, I knew there was a problem. I could have taken us to counseling 6 mnths, a year before and I might have found out why she was unhappy, might have found out that I was trying to escape...
<What would you do all over again, in relation to M2?> I would stand up and take the lead. I would get up and make things happen. Uh...all these things are so easy to do when put up against getting a D.
