I'll revisit anything anyone brings up at least once. Then I'll determine if it was a valid revisit. Do I want to revisit M1 - not really, but I will. Yes, I do feel that there is something to mourn for M1. I cut a person out of my life that was smart, beautiful, and dedicated. She had her issues but we all have them. M1 was not a diversion to M2. I see them as two individual people, two separate relationships, two separate paths. I don't compare the two women, never have. I do compare the love and emotions I have for them - but that is mine, not theirs. I can tell you that I have been thinking about M1 since after the shock of D2 has started to at least dull a bit. Something kind of weird actually happened. A few months ago, basically a couple of months after D2, my mom called and told me that she had a couple boxes of my things from many years ago. A few months after D1 M1 dropped off that stuff at my moms condo. I thought it was really weird, it had been like 7yrs....anyway, I diverge.
